Over the past few years my trust for God has not only changed, but has also been strengthened immensely. I grew up as a pastor’s kid and I think I could give credit to the fact that my parents are great people who instilled a sense of trust in the Lord within me. There was never a point in my life where I turned away from God or even was mad at Him. I definitely went through quite a few hard times, as well as times that I was disobedient to Him, but even in these times I always clung to Him instead of being bitter towards Him or running away. I do not know why that is, but I am so thankful that this is true. It is in these hard times that I clung to Him where my trust and faith in God grew the most.
Like Moore (2003) stated, “I believe our ability to trust God completely is dependent on our view of who God is“. The more I know God personally and have met Him in different ways, the more I trust Him. Every season of my life seems to produce a new facet to my relationship with the Lord. It is almost as if everything I go through helps me to meet Him in a new and different way as long as I cling to Him and search for Him. I could share many stories of the different times that my relationship with the Lord grew in this sense. I could share the story of how I met His love in a personal way, or I could share of the season of my life where I met His goodness. I am currently in a season of meeting His joy – quite possibly one of the best seasons of my life this far.
However, the season of my life where I met the Lords faithfulness will perhaps always be one of the most memorable. I went through a really rough time in my life as a junior and senior in high school, and well into my freshman year of college. I moved to a new high school and this in itself made me very lonely and sad. I also had a boyfriend of three years at the time. I met him at church but by this point in our relationship we had both grown – just in different directions. I was very involved in the church and passionate about serving, whereas he had stopped going to church all together and was very involved in drugs. There were a lot of dynamics within the relationship that would take too long to mention, but long story short, it ended up turning into a very abusive relationship – myself as the victim. I very specifically remember the day that the Lord instructed me to walk away from this relationship. I remember the Lord asking me to trust in Him. He placed a very vivid picture in my heart of what my life would be like if I continued to be in this relationship. Then, He gave me a very vivid picture of the abundant life He had for me. By a strength that was definitely not my own, and many attempts later, I walked away from the relationship. I went through a time of grieving and depression. However, through time, the Lord redeemed me and made me new. As time went on, I met my Gods faithfulness in a very personal and extraordinary way. He was faithful to heal. He was faithful to redeem me. He was faithful in all of the promises he had laid on my heart! I made a lot of mistakes and was disobedient in a lot of ways throughout this season of my life and I learned very quickly that He is faithful despite our faithlessness. What a good God, we serve.
It was in this season of my life that because of the Lords faithfulness, I developed a sense of trust in Him that is unexplainable. I went from trusting in him in an “intelligence” way or an “emotional” way as talked about in the reading this week – to truly trusting Him with every inch of my being. Granted there are times that I doubt or may lack trust for a minute, but all I have to do is look back on the ways He has been faithful to me time and time again, and it is more than enough to fuel my trust in Him.
His faithfulness continues to bless my life immensely. Two months ago I started living on my own and being responsible for all of my bills and finances for the first time in my life. I had a budget planned out, but there is still a sense of anxiety with this being my first time as well as the fact that I am a full time student and can only work part time. Also, it was around this time of me starting this new chapter that I got into an accident and my car insurance went up (this was definitely not in the budget). I had two choices in front of me: either I could stop tithing and use that money each month to pay for the increase in the car insurance, or I could continue tithing and trust that the Lord would provide. I heard a quote once that says, “I would rather live on 90% with God’s blessing than 100% without it”. Looking back on the faithfulness God has always had in my life, I decided to not only continue tithing, but to start tithing even more. Long story short, I ended up getting a raise at work last week that was more than enough to make ends meet. Wow, my God is so good and so faithful! He is more than worthy of our trust no matter the circumstance!
If you have never met the faithfulness of our God in this way, I leave you with a challenge..
Whatever you are going through.. whatever troubles you are facing..
Place your trust in Him! Seek Him and go to Him for your every need. I promise you that He will not let you down if you place your trust in Him.
He is a good, loving, and faithful God who wants to bless you abundantly!
Lamentations 3:22-23 “The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”
And if not, God is still good! Daniel 3:1-24
Moore, B. (2003). A woman and her God: Life-enriching messages featuring Beth Moore, Jill Briscoe, Sandra D. Wilson, Kathleen Hart, David Hager, Thelma Wells and Beverly LaHaye. Arlington, Tex.: Integrity.